I have been coming to FA ever since, and my life got better in every way imaginable. I was heading toward serious health problems because of my weight and addiction. I was also heading toward other serious problems because I couldn’t seem to be healthy and sane in relationships or work either. FA is more than a diet or a weight loss program, of which I tried many. FA taught me how to live.
Free to Enjoy Life
I just took out my summer clothes. Every year I try them on at the season’s change, and every year they fit! It still surprises me. It didn’t used to be that way. Years ago, before I joined FA, I had to buy new clothes every season, and mid-season too, because I kept getting heavier all the time.
Today, in recovery from food addiction, I have been the same size for many years. And more importantly, I have freedom from food obsession, the cravings are gone and I am free to enjoy life. I can go to parties and enjoy my friends and family instead of hovering over the food. I go home comfortable and happy instead of sick, stuffed and ashamed of my eating and my unsociability. I think this is the way life is meant to be – free from food obsession and from constant worry about size and weight.
By the way, I did buy a swim cover-up this year, but it’s to protect me from sunburn – not to hide my fat self!
Food Is Not the Answer
What I looked most forward to in the summers was my birthday. I got so excited planning what I was going to allow myself to eat and with whom I would eat it that I’d actually have trouble sleeping the night before. It was a thrill to have a green light to eat. See, I rarely planned to have a binge. I would just all of a sudden find myself surrounded by food and inhaling as much as possible. But for my birthday, I could not think of a better way to ‘treat” myself. Of course, the next day, I always felt empty and hated myself. Food was not the answer.
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